A smart googly thrown by Aditya Mohan.
Man proposes,God disposes.
We may try for a particular thing and wish to have that; but something else may happen.
It is only when we get the real feedback that we come to know how we fared or how we are looked at or assessed.
When I was about thirty or so, I had a rude shock about the irony or contrast between our expectations and what others feel about us. While many whom I interacted with reflected a view which I was expecting and interested in, one particular person conveyed an an exactly opposite view.
There was another incident also. One day when I went to another branch office of my employer organisation, in another town, I met an old colleague of mine with whom I worked for a short period. I was surprised when that person told me that whenever the person heard a particular song in the radio/TV immediately remembered me.Actually, I never considered my self as a singer at all though I used to hum a few opening lines of film songs sometimes in leisure time. The person introduced me to another and said that I used to sing like 'so-and-so' singer.
I got surprised and did not know whether to feel happy or to feel dejected that my many other uniqueness did not impress that person.
From then on, I told myself that we cannot decide what image we will have, and it depended on the other side also.
So now I do not hold any expectations as to what others will think about me or how they will remember about me. It may not be what I consciously projected or specialised in, but something subtle and hidden that may be remembered.
So I do not want make a statement about how I want to be remembered. It would be realistic and I would be happy if it is a fair mixture of appreciation and criticism, with positive higher than the negative.