"SWM"- Somebody Watching Me, the biggest disease that almost 90% of the people have.Somebody Watching Me disease- these are not my words but I copied from a public speaker. Recently when watched a YouTube video, he spoke about this. Yes. Many people, think a lot before they speak or act. May be they are nervous because they feel what others think of their actions.
What the person next to me think of me if I do that? Am I correct or wrong? Will others blame me if I am wrong? I am nervous that others are watching my actions.
I am one among those people who suffer like this. From my childhood, I have a lost a lot of my life fearing that what others think of me for my actions. I was not dared to stand alone. Though, I had knowledge, though I wanted to speak or do something, I always fear how others see me.
I was not so confident. I was feeling inferior and nervous. For example, when I was doing under graduation, in a class of around 100 members, nobody was giving a correct answer. I knew what it was and I was thinking others are speaking nonsense. What is the use of me having knowledge when I don't get up speak?
If I have answered correctly among so many students, imagine how much encouragement I should have received from the lecturers?
Even when somebody critique me on my actions, I can't defend myself even when I feel that I have done the right thing. Why am I not able to express myself?
In many ways I feel like I have lost my hole life because of this inferiority I have. Why am I scared of people? Why can't I act as I like? Do you people possess the same kind of feelings?